I’ve Been a Bad, Bad Girl: 20 Years of Finding Strength in Fiona Apple’s ‘Tidal’
I first heard Fiona Apple in a dressing room at the GAP.
Cutting through the blur of fuzzy ‘90s alt-rock that populated the then-cool chain’s playlists and stopping me mid-pull of some flat-front khakis, the bass drum in “Sleep to Dream” sounded a warning, alerting something deep and primal in my belly. I felt like I was in A Thief in the Night, this insane 1972 apocalyptic movie my teachers occasionally terrified us with in children’s church on Sunday morning, where everybody looks to the sky, waiting for it to rip open.
“You say love is a hell you cannot bear / And I say give me mine back and then go there for all I care,” this angel of righteous anger spat. Swaying like the Holy Ghost had descended upon me, I closed my eyes till the battle cry ended, chill bumps dotting my arms as her fury turned the song into a howling tempest — and then again when, just like that, she tamed it, banging out such blissed-out piano chords that tears wet my cheeks. via Spin